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Mar. 18th, 2008

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Back Brace for Atlas

1:25:46 PM

Been a long time since I wrote anything down. Nearly a month ago now (Feb 22nd) my grandmother died unexpectedly. She'd been sick off and on since last summer, but no one expected her to degenerate so rapidly. I got back from California last Saturday. Still trying to readjust to the fact that life just keeps plodding on, no matter how I feel about it. I'm having trouble caring about silly things like chores and school. I'm also about a month behind on schoolwork, so I have a lot of studying, reading, and writing to get done in the next couple of weeks if I have a hope in hell of getting caught up before the semester ends. Still planning on doing Script Frenzy in April. Not sure how that's going to work out, but I'm determined to try. There's so much I took for granted, so much Nannie did for me that I never even thought about. It's going to be a rough year. Nothing is ever going to be the same without her here. My sister is calling a moratorium on all holidays since we always had them at Nan's house. I wish I could call one on life to give me enough time to process this gigantic hole in my life now. Unfortunately, the world (our culture) doesn't work that way. I'm lucky I got the few weeks that I did, but it's left me drowning in all the assignments, tests, labs, chores, etc. that I wasn't able to get done in CA. And all I want to do is crawl into myself and feel. Some part of me is afraid of what I'd find there.

Feb. 5th, 2008

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Big Fun Scary Goal 2008

2008 Monday, February 4
Big Fun Scary Goal 2008
11:36:42 AM

The List:
1. Learn to speak conversational German (the most I know is an old Alka Seltzer commercial my friends had to learn in high school. I took Spanish instead)
2. Purchase a .Mac account, set up my first website through iWeb, and begin posting one page from our comic a week.
3. Edit my 2007 novel into a form that makes logical sense (I think I wrote about a third to a fourth of it last year).
4. Do the same for NaNo novel 2006.
5. Ditto for NaNo novel 2005.
6. Compete in and win Script Frenzy again this year, despite it coming right before finals! (Why do you do this to us students???)
7. Graduate from college with my first Bachelor's degree (which I should be able to do in December)
8. Get over my test anxiety and finally get my driver's license (I'm 26, turning 27 this year...still have never had a one)
9. Go through our thousands of books (literally), catalogue them into Delicious, put the ones we don't want up for sale on Amazon, and get our online used book store going, finally!
10. Compete in and win NaNoWriMo in November for the fourth consecutive year (this wouldn't be so scary if I hadn't written half of last year's novel in the last two days of the month. My wrists still aren't speaking to me).

I figured posting it here would make me much more likely to keep up with it. And, I've almost got number 2 down. Got the .Mac account, got the webpage (sort-of), got the first update (yay!).

Wish me luck with everything else!
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New Additions

2008 Tuesday, February 5
New Additions
10:15:56 AM

Well, the universe must be trying to tell us something. About a week ago, a badly injured cat showed up on our back porch. He was having trouble moving his hind legs, walking, etc. Also, his tail appeared shattered, hanging limp and lifeless behind him while he stumbled around. For the first day, he wouldn't let us anywhere near him. We weren't sure the extent of his injuries or if he was bleeding, etc.

We put wet cat food out for him and watched over him from behind the door. The next day, he let us pet him. He's one of the clingiest cats I've ever had the pleasure of meeting. He just glues himself to our legs and feet, pushing up into our hands for petting, etc. No real purring, yet, but he's really friendly.

To make a long story short (too late), we got him inside the house, named him Ebon (he's entirely black and we weren't sure of his gender), tried to get some food and liquids into him, etc. We kept him separate from Ne Chan most of the time because she was curious and playful and he was hurt and scared. Didn't want them fighting or for him to get further injured. He still wouldn't let us examine him thoroughly. He just wanted to curl up in our laps or try to kill us while we walked.

We took him to the vet yesterday. Turns out Ebon is male, not neutered, and was probably clipped by a car. His injuries are pretty much fully healed and there doesn't seem to be any internal problems. He also doesn't have the two contagious cat diseases (cat HIV or cat lymphoma, I can't remember the shorthand). This was wonderful news. We were expecting to be told we'd have to put him down or spend an arm and a leg getting him operated on.

The negative side to this is that he has massive neurological damage to his back end. That's why his tail hangs limp and he has trouble walking. The way his hips healed seems to have caused his current mobility issues, too. And then there's the kinda ooky news that he can't "express" on his own. In layman's terms, that means we literally have to milk the urine out of him on a daily basis. He's seven years old with a considerable disability. The vet called him a geriatric cat and told us he probably wouldn't last very long. I usually don't disagree with vets, but I think he's gonna be okay. It's a little disturbing that I'll be helping him to use the litter box, but I'm surprisingly okay with it. Does that make me strange?

I'm just really happy that he's okay, that what he really needs is a bath and a lot of good food, and that we don't have to put him down. It snowed here last night (nothing that stuck past the sun coming up, but it's still pretty cold. We'll be keeping him inside at least until it gets warm again. Even then, I'm not sure he could protect himself if one of the other cats attacked him or a predator got in the yard or someone drove into the yard, etc. He just doesn't move fast enough.

So, we'll be "expressing" him on a daily basis and trying to acquaint NeChan with having a second cat in the house. She's got an appointment in March for her shots and the spaying operation. We're keeping separate litter boxes just in case Ebon has anything communicable and separate feeding areas. There's a very minimal chance of him being sick in the first place and an even smaller chance of them sharing anything unless they get into a knock down, drag out fight. I think we're going to be fine, though.

I'll get pictures up somewhere when I can. I got my .Mac account started and will be working on getting comics up to it ASAP. There's not much on it just yet, but if you're interested, it's here:

http://web.mac.com/sealsrose/ALED/Home.html

Ahh, isn't it pretty? Now click it, and enjoy the nothingness that is our website ;-)

Jan. 14th, 2008

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Reflection in a Microwave

2008 Monday, January 14
Reflection in a Microwave
2:41:47 PM

I think the world is starting to lose it. It's not me, really. Why are three walls of the student lounge beige and one of them is teal blue, for instance? Did they run out of beige paint? I find that hard to believe. Beige paint is pretty easy to come by in my experience. So someone purposefully designed this room to be totally unbalanced. How does that work, exactly? And then they go and put grey formica/plastic tables with light teal chairs in here. Continuing the theme? And then, as if that isn't enough cool colors to drug a meth addict into unconsciousness, they put a couch and three chairs in here that are dark stained wood with black leather cushions. Who designs these things?
I'm stuck at work, as if you couldn't tell. Stuck, strangely enough, looking at my reflection in the microwave on the sink counter across the room from me. I've never found microwaves to be particularly reflective, but this one is glaringly so. Must be the fluorescent lights. And that hum. How do people live with the constant hum of fluorescent lights? How?
Still working out the kinks of updating my blog from my internal journalling program. So this might look a little strange. Not my fault, honest.
One of my resolutions for the coming year is to update this thing more often, so that's why I'm reaching for something to type about. Lulu isn't doing the free copy of Nano books this year, which sucks! Gives me more time to procrastinate revising and editing my story, though. How wonderful, just what I needed. School is overwhelming already. I know it'll get easier as I get into the groove of things, but geez. Right off the bat, I've got a ton of homework and no money to get my books yet, so I'll be behind...like I am every semester. Gotta love financial aid!
We start work next week. School started today. I still haven't recovered from my "vacation" and my ankle is killing me. We're getting freezing temperatures for the next week, at least. The wind is kicking it hard outside and, though no one ever reports the wind chill factor, I doubt we're actually at 57 degrees like the temp gauge outside says. What I really want to do is crawl into a hole somewhere and make the world go away for another week or so. Teachers must get a sick sense of pleasure out of scaring the heck out of students with 30 page syllabi and assignments due three times a week. Ack!
Off to do something creative until my poor, frazzled brain can deal with the mountain of work I don't have a hope in hell of finishing because I can't get my textbooks until next week at the soonest. ::humming Mahna Mahna with eyes tightly closed, wishing the world away::

Dec. 12th, 2007

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Creative Therapy

2007 Wednesday, December 12
Creative Therapy
2:32:43 PM

We're trying out a new method for working at utilizing our creative more. Syn was interested in a self-taught program called The Artist's Way, so I got him the book and workbook for his birthday. We've both read through the beginning introduction to it, but we haven't had time to sit down and really work on any of the week one stuff. School has been sucking us dry of late and work isn't doing much better. Life just seems to be conspiring to direct us towards making creativity a priority in our lives. We are artists. We will not be content doing a typical 9 to 5. We will be unfulfilled and unhappy if we put our dreams aside and find "real jobs." We are serious about finding some way to make a living through our creative abilities.
Unfortunately, I think this whole concept of doing something to make money at it is ruining the fun of being creative. It's making our art (writing, painting, etc.) feel more like work and that is terrible. Yes, we want to be successful artists, but in order to achieve that goal, we must first learn how to just be artists. The success will come if it is meant to. We will find a way to survive and (hopefully) thrive in the coming years, but we have to start just by doing things for the fun of them, instead of with a monetary goal in mind. I don't do NaNoWriMo every year because I think I'll write a bestselling novel in 30 days and be set for life. I do it as a way of showing myself what I am capable of. It is a challenge to see just how creative I can get when given a concrete deadline. And if this year is any indication, pretty darn creative!
So, my New Year's resolution (yes, I've been thinking about this a lot lately) is not to write a certain number of words a day. It isn't to write on a daily basis, it isn't to edit my novel so I can get it published. My resolution is to make creativity a priority for the hell of it. There are a lot of things I'm already going to be changing with the coming year (schedules, work, school, etc.) to try to make our lives a little easier than they have been for the past few months. Many of these changes are centered around giving us time to just be home. We haven't had a day off since school started. Not a real day off. Not a day where we didn't have homework or housework to do, or other work outside the home to do, or obligations with students or outings with friends. I'm starting to forget what my house looks like from the inside during the day because we get home after dark, rush to get our homework done, go to bed, and sleep for a few hours before getting up in the morning and rushing out of the house without even time to eat breakfast. Our eating and sleeping habits are non-existent and we're suffering for it. This will change.
Hopefully with these changes, we may be able to squeeze one day out of the week for something fun. Something that doesn't involve school or work. Something that involves being creative. Taking a day trip with our cameras and filling our memory cards with shots. Taking an afternoon to mess around with painting or needlework or beading and jewelry. Taking an entire day to work on the comic, coloring and sketching and bouncing ideas off each other. This is what I want for the new year. I want that day.
And the world isn't going to give me that day. I have to take it. I have to guard it against errands and dr. appointments and chores and animals and well-meaning friends. I have to put both feet down (and maybe even a finger or two) and refuse to give up that day for ANY reason. I have to make sure I don't leave any responsibilities dangling or put homework off so that I have to use that day for something serious so I won't flunk out of college (yeah, cause in my head, one assignment = flunking). I will have that day and I will keep that day and woe be to anyone and anything that tries to encroach on my territory.
This last semester has been absolute hell. Next semester will not be. And hopefully, the Artist's Way will help us soothe our inner artists into peeking their heads out more than once a year and help us unblock our wounded children. Art doesn't need a purpose. It doesn't need a reason and it is its own reward. That is my resolution for the new year.

Dec. 6th, 2007

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NaNo Aftermath

2007 Thursday, December 6
NaNo Aftermath
12:17:32 PM

I don't want to be an adult! I spent this morning searching around for rental cars online and signing my soul away to get one for two weeks to drive home for Christmas. Now I just have to figure out what route to take, how I'm going to afford gas, where I'm going to eat on the road and not get sick, etc. etc. etc. It's going to be a two day trip. Sigh...

I'm a little afraid of the drive, a little worried about being on the road for two days straight, and how I'm going to afford presents and food while I'm there. I want to be a kid again. I want to believe that the green leaves on tree branches really are money and I want to not have to worry about all these details because it's ruining my enjoyment of a vacation and seeing my family.

But I finished my novel (my wrists still aren't speaking to me) and I wrote about 22,000 words in the last two days of the month. I want to dive back into my novel and ignore finals, final papers, discussion boards, exit exams, etc. I want school and adult responsibilities to disappear so I can just be a creative child. Read: no responsibilities and I get to play with fingerpaints whenever I want to. I know, I want to be back in kindergarten. Things were simpler then. Despite my manic-depressive teacher. I am so screwed in the head.

Anyway, car is rented, route is being figured out, and I will be getting to go home for the holidays. I'd better pull out my DVD and rewatch that movie just to prepare. Gotta love Robert Downey, Jr.

Nov. 16th, 2007

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NaNo Update

Well, it's been 12 days since I posted anything anywhere related to NaNoWriMo. It's been a hard couple of weeks. I'm getting my word count back up, though, and I'm planning to be back on track by Sunday. That way, I can work at falling behind again before the start of Week Four. I still have no idea what I'm writing about. :-D

I managed to completely forget about three of the characters I introduced in the beginning of the novel and I've been focused solely on a completely different three characters, who are all like old friends in my head. I've decided that I definitely have to stick with characters that have been searching for a story they belong in. This is their time in the limelight. Meet Vincent, Dave, and Cheryl.

* * * * *

“About fucking time you answered the door, Vin,” Dave growled as the door swung inward. “Where the fuck were you? Mars?”

“I was taking a leak, you bastard,” Vincent drawled out while yawning, then straightened ever so slightly. “Cheryl...”

The perky, Asian girl pushed past Dave, throwing him a glare over her shoulder. “He threatened to fry my hover if I didn’t give him a ride. Can I borrow your fresher?” Without waiting for an answer, she entered the house, brushing past Vincent with a brief smile, then disappeared into the small fresher room.

Vincent watched her departure, eyes stuck on the spot where her legs encased in bright orange tights vanished beneath her fire engine red mini skirt. Ever the sensitive type, Dave clapped Vincent on the shoulder. “Probably more ice than anything up there, Vin. Maybe even a bear trap or two.”

Before Vincent could reply, Dave had entered the house and descended down into the basement room they used for practicing. Left with the faint odor of unwashed male, Vincent wrinkled his nose and glared at his lead guitarist. Today’s practice session was off to its usual, jolly start.

Four hours later, Vincent was convinced that they’d either be famous or end up in prison for attempted murder. Cheryl, the drummer, had just thrown her last intact drumstick straight at Dave’s head after he’d made a comment about her inability to keep up with the beat.

“That’s because you’re playing too damn fast, you jackass!” she raged. “It’s a song about getting high and you’re playing it like a fast polka!”

“Guys...” Vincent tried to interrupt, but Dave hollered right over him.

“We wouldn’t have to slow everything down if you could play a consistent beat without fucking it up every two measures.”

“You trying to say that I can’t play the drums? Is that what you mean?” was Cheryl’s shrill reply.

“Guys...” Vincent tried again, equally unsuccessfully.

“Yeah, you couldn’t drum your way out of a strip joint. Everyone knows girls can’t play.” Dave gruffly retorted.

That, as far as Vincent could tell, was the last straw. Cheryl launched herself over the drum set and straight at Dave. His quick reflexes enabled him to get his holo projector out of the way before she hit him, but that was about all he was able to do. Vincent jumped up and tried to pull a screaming, kicking, clawing Cheryl up and away while Dave tried to keep her nails, feet, and teeth away from anything vital. No wonder they had named themselves Friction.

Vincent switched his hold on Cheryl, grabbing her around the waist and hoisted her off Dave enough for him to crawl out from under her and away from the couch.

“Stupid, fucking bitch,” he swore as he rubbed his hand along the side of his neck where she’d clawed him deep enough to bleed a little.

“What did you call me, you fucking asshole?” Cheryl screamed, bucking and kicking, trying to get away from Vincent.

Vincent managed to shout at Dave over Cheryl’s stream of cursing, “Get upstairs and get a derm on it, I’ll be up in a minute.”

“Whatever,” Dave muttered, turning and heading up the stairs.

Cheryl was left heaving and cursing under her breath, most of her energy spent. Vincent looked down at her from behind and tightened his grip slightly. “If I let you go, will you promise to stay down here and not destroy anything?”

“Why should I?” Cheryl demanded petulantly, and then sighed heavily before Vincent could answer. “Yeah, yeah, I’m a big girl. I can control myself.”

After giving her a few more moments to calm down, Vincent warily let her go, ready to defend himself if she decided to turn on him. Instead, she flopped down on the couch and sighed again, looking around the room.

“What are we doing here, Vin?” she asked in a far away tone. “What the fuck are we doing here?”

“Making music,” he replied quietly.

“No, Vincent,” she responded in a similar tone. “We are not making music. We are pretending to make music while Numb Nuts up there criticizes and complains. We should be playing at bars, we should be trying to get gigs, we should be getting our name out there. Instead we’re spending all our time down here ‘practicing.’ Think about it, Vin. We should be on stage!” With this last, Cheryl leaned forward, resting her elbows on her knees, eyes focused intently on Vincent’s face.

So intently, in fact, that Vincent turned away, a blush rising up the side of his neck. “We’re not good enough yet, Cheryl,” he muttered, and even to his ears it sounded lame.

“Bullshit!” she spat, rising to her feet. “Pure, unadulterated bull shit!” She grabbed her holo projector and turned off her drum set, jamming the device back into her purse.

“Where are you going, Cher?” Vincent asked, following her as she headed for the stairs, purse slung over one shoulder, boots clacking noisily on the tile floor.

“I’m going to a bar and I’m going to get drunk, Vincent.” she replied flatly. “And then I’m going to find someone as drunk as I am and I’m going to have sex with them.” Vincent took a step backward as if he’d be slapped. “And in the morning, I’m going to have a good long think about the direction my life is heading in and how I should change it so that drunken evenings and one night stands stop sounding like a good fucking plan!”

With that, she stomped up the stairs and out the door, slamming it firmly behind her. Vincent winced at the sound, which brought up memories of doors slamming and windows shattering, which circled around to that one perfect, unbroken window...

Vincent slammed his fist into the wall beside the stairs. The pain that ran up his arm into his brain felt so good that he did it again, and again, and again until his hand went numb and his vision blurred and the image of the window and the thought of Cheryl with someone else faded into the nice cold cushion of endorphins.

The next thing Vincent was conscious of was Dave holding him down while he struggled. Vincent was silent, but Dave was calling something, which made Vincent wonder what he was saying. As soon as the need for escape lost to his incredible curiosity, Vincent understood that Dave was screaming his name.

“Vincent, stop it, you stupid little shit!”

And Vincent did so, went entirely limp under Dave and stopped everything. Dave was so shocked by the change that he nearly lost his balance, falling slightly forward onto Vincent before managing to catch himself up on his arms.

“Um, Vin?” he said quietly.

“Yeah?” Vincent replied.

“You’re bleeding.”

Vincent looked down at himself, then over to his right hand, which was a mess of blood and what looked like white flecks of paint. Craning his neck a bit, he managed to see over Dave’s shoulder and found the reddish hole through the wall that he’d pounded with his fist.

Still mellow from the endorphins and not feeling any pain from his hand, Vincent let his head settle back down against the cool tile floor and shrugged a little. “Doesn’t hurt.”

“Yet, c’mon dude, we gotta get ya to a medic.” Dave rocked back on his heels, pulling Vincent with him as he rose.

The lethargy made Vincent apathetic to movement or medical attention, but Dave was insistent. “C’mon, Vin, stand up, damn it.”

“Don’t worry about it, I’ll be fine.”

“That’s bullshit, and you know it. You probably broke at least a couple of your fingers, you are not fine.”

“What do you care?” Vincent asked with a small, dead voice.

Dave pulled back from his position of half carrying, half dragging Vincent up the stairs, pulled back and looked Vincent in the eyes. “I care, all right? Now get moving.”

Confused by this, Vincent went along with Dave’s urgings, a low, dull throb beginning in his hand. “Cheryl’s gonna quit the band,” he spoke again in his dead voice.

“So what? We’ll get another drummer.”

This stopped Vincent in his tracks. His bloody, ruined hand managed to fist in Dave’s grimy t-shirt and he pulled the older, taller man down to his face so their eyes could meet. “I don’t want another drummer,” he said slowly and succinctly.

Despite knowing that Vincent was maybe fifteen or sixteen tops, that the kid weighed at least a hundred pounds less than him, and had no military training that would match his own, Dave found his mouth going dry at the look in the teenager’s eyes.

Vincent wasn’t in there anymore. Something other, much colder, had bled into his eyes and taken over. And that other had no qualms about doing unspeakable things just to watch him scream and bleed. Dave had seen that look before, when he’d been out on patrol in the Alpha sector, near Earth. And it chilled him to the core seeing it coming from a boy he’d known for the last five years. A boy he’d helped rescue tadpoles from drainage puddles, for Christ’s sake.

Apparently satisfied with whatever he read in Dave’s eyes, the thing that wasn’t Vincent let him go and the boy slumped against him once more, barely conscious now. Not even sure what he was doing, Dave picked the boy up in his arms and headed out the front door. He still needed a medic, though Dave was convinced that a simple street doc wasn’t all that Vincent needed right now.

* * * * *

So, what do ya think? I also posted an excerpt kinda explaining the setting of my novel on the NaNo site. I thought a long excerpt post might make up for me saying pretty much nothing for the last almost two weeks. Oh, and the boy from the first thing I posted? Remember him? That's Vincent. :-D

Nov. 4th, 2007

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Pictures of our Neko-Chan

I figured out how to make a scrapbook of a few of the pictures we have of Ne-Chan so far. I'm sure there will be more, but not tonight. I'm going back to writing now. See ya later with an excerpt (hopefully). Oh! Go to Twitter and add me to your timeline. I LOVE this program! Check it out at twitter.com
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New Neko Neko!

Just a quick note since my brain oozed out my ear about three hours ago from excessive amounts of homework, blech!

Cousin Henry showed up with our new kitten tonight! So, around 9pm my time, Ne-Chan joined our family. She's a Siamese with the prettiest light blue eyes, just barely cross-eyed (as in, I'm not even sure she is, she might just be clumsy), and is absolutely lovable. Henry taped her in a cardboard box for the hour ride from his place to ours, so we didn't know what to expect when we pulled her out of it. She just meowed quietly at us both and proceeded to mark every inch of me she could get to, purring all the while so loudly that people across the kitchen from me could hear her. Absolutely love our new neko!

Pictures will be up probably around Wednesday. Faster connection and all that, but oh, she's adorable. Maybe I'll get one up tomorrow when I have more time and brain power.

Also, worked on the comic a bit today (instead of writing, bad me) and I'm getting much more comfortable with coloring and inking. Have to retrace all of the pencil scans (which will be time consuming) and clean things up a bit, but everything should turn out nicely. Going to experiment with Art Rage some more (LOVE that program, get it if you're an artist or if you like to draw, paint, watercolor, etc.)

Right, going to bed now. Have to be up at 8am so I can finish up homework. Ugh!

Nov. 2nd, 2007

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NaNo Day Two

Well, this year isn't off too such a rousing start. Life is intervening and giving me very little time for writing. I'm hoping to spend some time tonight and tomorrow catching up. It's day two and I'm already way behind...joy.

Here's the excerpt I promised to anyone bothering to read this. I only ask that all comments be encouraging in nature because I'm having enough trouble writing without everyone jumping in with their inner editors. Thanks!

The house looked about as welcoming as a gas chamber and just as healthy. A huge two story, left over from days when this part of the city had still been a suburb, it’s upper windows glared down at the street below. The few remnants of jagged glass still clinging to the window frames glinted in the sputtering streetlight. The teenage boy glared right back, taking in the mounds of dead leaves mingled with toxic levels of trash, the gaping hole behind the slanted slats of wood hammered across the front doorway. As he walked down the path to the door, past the broken gate which swung feebly from its one remaining hinge, he glanced at the remains of a low stone wall circling the yard. Trailing fingertips along the top of the cracked and pitted mortar, he circled the house using the wall as a guide. The leaves were thick here, but most of the garbage lay closer to the actual structure of the house, making his walk easier.

The house seemed to watch his slow progress, the glassless sharpness of the broken windows glowering at him menacingly. The paint had long since peeled away, revealing the weatherbeaten wood beneath. No brick facade for this old relic, no. Just rotting and curving slats of wood, stacked one on top of the other. The boy’s eyes followed the lines as he made his way around to the back of the house, having to leave his wall occasionally to step around large, dead oak trees; their lower bare branches clawing at his shirt and hair.

As he made the turn around the back of the building, the boy stopped and stared. One window, a pale circle of reflected moonlight, remained unbroken. From its placement (about a foot or so) from the peak of the roof, the boy assumed it opened from an attic, or perhaps a small cramped study or guest bedroom. The vision was so tantalizing that his fingertips left the wall, moving to adjust the headphones clipped to his ears.

All was silent as he picked his way through the battlefield of refuse and plant matter. The sounds of the wrong side of the city slipped from the boy’s ears, stolen away by the quiet static in his brain. It was always like that, the silent almost crackling, the hush before ignition.

The boy mounted the back stairs confidently, stepping over the remains of the back door as he grasped the splintered banister. Once stable, his grip loosened, again trailing fingertips lightly over the surface, careful to avoid being wounded. His hands were his instruments of art after all. He needed them whole.

The boy paused on the threshold of the back entrance, savoring the anticipation of the cleansing. His eyes quickly took in the destruction that used to be a kitchen. Cabinet doors gaped open obscenely, broken crockery littered the floor, mingling with a plethora of glass shards. Meticulously, the boy made his way around the minefield and into a hallway. Doors leading off to either side led into a sitting room and a library. Making a mental note to return, the boy entered the foyer, glancing at the piece of sidewalk he had so recently occupied. The lamppost he’d stood under still flickered sickly.

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